So hope you all would have liked the first part of my "Love" story :) and here comes the next part. Well in this part I realised its better to be friends with those whom you love(or is that the word???)cherish,adore what not than to get into a relationship filled with jealousy, possessiveness and yes the very powerful destroyer of all relationships-the most dangerous letter "I" also known as EGO, which ultimately ruins everything which you thought as "beautiful".
Well to continue from where I left, days passed by with me just looking at her, admiring her and like that my schooling got completed and I moved on to my 11th(junior college) days thinking of her to be one of my innumerable infatuations. Days passed and I got more interested in another gal in college, she was "fatima"(she got married now and lives in the US of A). The same thing continued her also with me just looking at her and she returning my glances etc...etc... and at one point of time during 12th board exams I went to the extent of writing a 'love letter' to her..my very first love letter to anyone, and as I was about to give it to her something stopped me and the love letter finally ended in the trash. Like that even 12th came to an end and my dad got transferred to Chennai. The thought of leaving Hyderabad hurt me alot.
In the second week of May'04 we shifted to Chennai and after endless searching for the right courses and colleges got admission in SASTRA University for Computer Engineering. And all these time my school sweetheart came to my mind very rarely and whenever any silly forwards or questions related to crushes or past love "she" and "fatima" used to come to my mind. Her thought was always there at the back of my mind. Then college started and you guys wont believe I had one more crush and this time its my old schoolmate from chennai. I saw her the very first day and talked to her. She was a 'bong'(a bengali!!) and looks really good and we were really good friends way back in school. She couldnt believe that it was me as I looked a lot better than I was in school with shell frame specs and a red thread hanging to protect them from slipping off my ears. And from her talks and the way she looked at me I realised that the same gal who tied rakhi way back in school is now attracted to me and then I realised it was just a piece of thread and nothing can stop your heart from falling for someone.
She tried to talk to me everytime we crossed paths but me being a 'not-so-sure-what-to-do' sort of guy always used to avoid her and take a different route. I would have talked to her only once or twice in the whole four years of college. And one fine day she got committed to one of the seniors in our college and that day for a split second felt a little sad but then felt happy for her. Like everytime even this latest crush ceased to be and I remained the same single guy. As they say 'Everything happens for a reason', I realised the true meaning of this only in my fourth year at college when my school sweetheart whom I mentioned as 'Shriya' made an reentry into life.
Well guys, with this blog I come to the end of the second part of my life. More in the third part where I find the 'first love' of my life and write about those unforgettable days. Till then bbye...take care...
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Thursday, July 31, 2008
The Beginning!!!
Hello everyone...
Ya am back to the blogging business after a two year hiatus. This time no blog on Quotas or reservation but purely on my relationship with the girl whom i thought( i still think!!) was(is) the girl of my life. The girl whose name am not going to reveal...ok say Shriya...coz she looks like the hot actress Shriya(shes my fav actor too).
Well...to start with how this relationship or love started...I should take you all to the academic year of 2000-01 in Harvard Public School where I(or we) did my secondary level schooling. I was damn sick of the school when i joined in 1999. The school was very small with no ground and cramped spaces. Somehow I found my friends in that school and my 8th grade passed off without any hitches. Then started the 9th grade and as usual started going to classes and then one day I saw her with her younger sister at school. That day i felt maybe this is what they called as "Love at first sight". I was drawn to her completely. Her dusky skin,her pink lips with the dimpled smile and those short hair from her "bob cut" made me go crazy and that time i decided she is going to be the love of my life.
I started looking at her daily...and the important thing about this was that...she is my classmate's and my close friend's cousin. Initially I was a little uncertain whether to go about pursuing her or not. Then I thought if all these were considered then I would remain single throughout my life. Not a single day passed without me looking at her, and I didnt know whether she looked at me or not..though she gave glances at me whenever I was playing with her cute little sister. Actually I never thought the cute little girl had a beautiful elder sister. To be honest I didnt have the courage to go and talk to her...am a very shy guy..so whenever she was with her little sister sitting on the shed in the afternoon waiting for their bus, I used to go and play with her, but I actually wanted to be near her and wanted her to realise my liking for her.
Days went by and I was still looking at her only with only a slight improvement which I felt was that, even she started to look at me. I felt pretty good and I was so mad about her that I used to observe each and evrything about her....her way of eating,her way of adjusting the hair band whenever a strand feel on her face,her style of walking and most important of all her smile with those cute little "dimples" which made me feel that she is the most beautiful girl God had ever made.
Then came the much awaited Science Exhibition of 2002. It was an exhibition where each and every student in the school did their project in a subject and put it up for display. Guys...guys forgot to tell you this...I was so crazy about her that on Akshaya Tritiya or the day considered to be very auspicious,my mom said that whatever you ask on this day to god, it will be granted by him. I thought this to be the chance,with a blind belief I prayed to Lord Venkateswara that I need her. But honestly never thought it will come true someday. Coming back to the science exhibition my friend(her cousin) and I were roaming around the school checking out each and every exhibit and then we came to her project which was done on checking the blood group through easy means. This day will forever remain etched in my mind...coz this was the day I touched her or she touched me for the first time.
We went to her group and asked about the what all was about and then she explained everything and then asked us to show our hands, so that they can test our blood group. First my friend showed his hand and they tested his blood group and then I showed my hand and this time I was on "cloud nine"when she touched my hand and tried to prick my finger for that single drop of blood. I didnt know what happened....but not a single drop of blood came when i was pricked. Its always said that you melt off, whenever you are touched or moved by the one you love....but it was quite opposite for me when I became a statue with the only feeling of her touching my hand. I was looking at her only,with no feeling of anyone around me. And then she tried hard and no the blood wont come out and then she got scared that she will hurt me and then gave the pin to one of the other mates to get my blood. She was smiling at me all the time and that moment still remains in my mind.
This experience was one of the best moments of my lifetime.....more to come....till then take care...jiyo muskurao...kya pata kal ho naa ho!!!:-)
Ya am back to the blogging business after a two year hiatus. This time no blog on Quotas or reservation but purely on my relationship with the girl whom i thought( i still think!!) was(is) the girl of my life. The girl whose name am not going to reveal...ok say Shriya...coz she looks like the hot actress Shriya(shes my fav actor too).
Well...to start with how this relationship or love started...I should take you all to the academic year of 2000-01 in Harvard Public School where I(or we) did my secondary level schooling. I was damn sick of the school when i joined in 1999. The school was very small with no ground and cramped spaces. Somehow I found my friends in that school and my 8th grade passed off without any hitches. Then started the 9th grade and as usual started going to classes and then one day I saw her with her younger sister at school. That day i felt maybe this is what they called as "Love at first sight". I was drawn to her completely. Her dusky skin,her pink lips with the dimpled smile and those short hair from her "bob cut" made me go crazy and that time i decided she is going to be the love of my life.
I started looking at her daily...and the important thing about this was that...she is my classmate's and my close friend's cousin. Initially I was a little uncertain whether to go about pursuing her or not. Then I thought if all these were considered then I would remain single throughout my life. Not a single day passed without me looking at her, and I didnt know whether she looked at me or not..though she gave glances at me whenever I was playing with her cute little sister. Actually I never thought the cute little girl had a beautiful elder sister. To be honest I didnt have the courage to go and talk to her...am a very shy guy..so whenever she was with her little sister sitting on the shed in the afternoon waiting for their bus, I used to go and play with her, but I actually wanted to be near her and wanted her to realise my liking for her.
Days went by and I was still looking at her only with only a slight improvement which I felt was that, even she started to look at me. I felt pretty good and I was so mad about her that I used to observe each and evrything about her....her way of eating,her way of adjusting the hair band whenever a strand feel on her face,her style of walking and most important of all her smile with those cute little "dimples" which made me feel that she is the most beautiful girl God had ever made.
Then came the much awaited Science Exhibition of 2002. It was an exhibition where each and every student in the school did their project in a subject and put it up for display. Guys...guys forgot to tell you this...I was so crazy about her that on Akshaya Tritiya or the day considered to be very auspicious,my mom said that whatever you ask on this day to god, it will be granted by him. I thought this to be the chance,with a blind belief I prayed to Lord Venkateswara that I need her. But honestly never thought it will come true someday. Coming back to the science exhibition my friend(her cousin) and I were roaming around the school checking out each and every exhibit and then we came to her project which was done on checking the blood group through easy means. This day will forever remain etched in my mind...coz this was the day I touched her or she touched me for the first time.
We went to her group and asked about the what all was about and then she explained everything and then asked us to show our hands, so that they can test our blood group. First my friend showed his hand and they tested his blood group and then I showed my hand and this time I was on "cloud nine"when she touched my hand and tried to prick my finger for that single drop of blood. I didnt know what happened....but not a single drop of blood came when i was pricked. Its always said that you melt off, whenever you are touched or moved by the one you love....but it was quite opposite for me when I became a statue with the only feeling of her touching my hand. I was looking at her only,with no feeling of anyone around me. And then she tried hard and no the blood wont come out and then she got scared that she will hurt me and then gave the pin to one of the other mates to get my blood. She was smiling at me all the time and that moment still remains in my mind.
This experience was one of the best moments of my lifetime.....more to come....till then take care...jiyo muskurao...kya pata kal ho naa ho!!!:-)
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