The Beginning of the End! Part-2

Four years since my last post. Wow. A lot has changed. As we Indians say, I became a man (in a lot of contexts). I traveled a lot in America. I took my first international vacation to Israel, though it was just for one week. A post on that later. Las Vegas did make me forget a lot and accepted me as a part of it. Back to the future now.

Here I am in Hyderabad on a public holiday, checking into a hotel at Lakdikapul with the manager there asking me if I need a room facing the street or want a quiet room for studying. I preferred the quiet room and got settled in after letting my girlfriend know that I will meet her in an hour or two. I got freshened up, took an auto-rickshaw and left for Himayat Nagar- a place where my school is and a lot of places for youngsters to hang out and also the place where I was to be interrogated by her friends. There she was tall, dark(I mean the hair here. I never got the exact meaning of what it is meant to add beauty to) and beautiful standing with her friend. After a few exchange of pleasantries we went to the fast food joint where three more of her friends joined us. And I was nervous as shit. Almost a foot shorter than my girl(not exactly a foot but a few inches. Three exactly) and with her friends looking at both of us, thinking whether to accept me as their best friend's boy, giggling at each other. It was almost as if the supervisors were discussing whether to give a salary raise or not, as I already had the job. The four girls sounded nice and and were nice to me as well. Later my girl told me that they liked me.

After meeting them I started back to my hotel. Since I wasn't earning anything back then and with a limited six notes of the five hundred denomination I just slipped into my bed, switched on the TV and dozed off. The rest of the day or night was spent talking to her on phone and deciding the places as to where to meet the next day. We met the next day and she bunked her college and we went to a movie, lunch and then to a beautiful park called 'Lotus Pond'. Its a beautiful park and it was pretty obvious it was maintained by a private group when the security guard started following us everywhere inside, making sure we were not making out. Still we found a way to outsmart him and into a beautiful enclosure of flowers and benches. I pulled her to the side, by the wall and kissed her cheek and neck. I was hot. Literally. I was burning like crazy. She was a little taken aback when she touched me. When I was about to kiss her (she wasn't ready for that though), lo and behold the guard found us. He didn't say anything, he was just watching and that was enough to creep us out. We left the enclosure, roamed around the park a little more. Took some pics of her off her phone and we were on way back to home. I dropped her off and went to my hotel room.

It was the day to leave Hyderabad and it was ethnic day in her college. So she told me that she wont be able to meet me afterwards and that I can come and meet her at the spot where she takes the bus to college. I was shaken a little. My ego was bursting out. It was like "Here I am, travelling 1400 KMs to meet her and spending four days inside a hotel room doing nothing and she says she cant meet me?" I agreed to meet her there. I checked out of my hotel room and was down to my last 400 bucks. Still, I took an auto and reached her place. Her dad dropped her in their Maruti car. Wow. She was stunning. I meant my girl. She was in a dark blue saree with a black blouse. I still remember that moment. She was gorgeous. She came and said "Hi" and we chatted a little before her friends joined her. Her friends started wondering who she is talking to. She joined them and was talking to them while I started simmering. The Leo in me couldn't hold himself any longer and I told her am leaving and got hold of an auto to the railway station.

On the way, the Leo in me got back to his senses and called her. She was angry. The Libra's wrath was no match for the Leo. She was on the bus to her college and she didn't talk anything. I said sorry multiple times and then she spoke. Everything she said felt right to me. I begged for her forgiveness and she agreed to meet me later. In a few hours time. Mindful of the diminishing finances, I took a bus this time. I met her in the bus stand and we took an auto to nowhere. We didn't know where to go. We told the driver a destination and he went on while we chatted and made up. When we had already reached the destination, we changed autos and got back to the same place where we got previous auto. We did a lot of touching and we(read I) couldn't take the hands off each other. Now I realize, why the monks are celibate. A single touch of a woman will make you crazy and forget everything. I dropped her at her home, said our goodbyes and was on my way to the station. I took my luggage from the cloak room and boarded the train back with 50 rupees in my hand.

It has just started. Time for the downfall.

The Beginning of the End! Part-1

Hey guys. Wassup. I ended my last blog post with how I went back home after dropping her home. I then left for Chennai and my friends came to see me off. That was the best New Year I had ever had and will always remain. At home in Chennai, they were the days of my final year project and we four of us friends used to roam around in the name of working for our ambitious project for a big ATM manufacturing company. I missed her a lot. A lot. I used to call her in the nights as it was the only time I could get some privacy. My mom started growing suspicious. She kept asking me who it was and whom you are talking to at this time of the night. She knew it was a girl. And then I started talking in the evenings. I used to tell her that am going to my friend's place and take a walk along the beach or just go to the terrace of my building and talk to her. I was waiting for my holidays to get over so that I can go to my college, where I wont be under the watchful eyes of my doting mom. I then realised that these are some of the extra packages which you have to carry alongwith the bigger package called 'Love'. I readied myself for that.

Finally my holidays got over and I left for my college. Once in college, my friends started asking my story and I told them. So, all was going well till then. I didnt know why. Maybe I started to take her for granted, (even tough I tried not to) fissures started to develop. Small small fights and altercations. Most of them because of me. But what I didnt realise was that, the things which seem insignificant or small now, would grow into something bigger and dangerous in the future. And it did. Along with all the romaticised messages, chats and calls, we also had our share of tiffs. 'Yours truly' being the reason for all of them. I would say something really stupid which I will realise only after I had uttered them. I behaved in the most immature way and she the most mature for a girl 3 years younger to me.

Possessiveness started to raise its ugly head. Well it is good for a relationship but everytime if that was a reason for any fight, then its a very serious issue. Long distance relationship wasn't working out as how we expected it will. But we just thought all of these as passing clouds. I loved talking to her. Loved her voice, her innocence and all these fights didnt matter to me because she was the one I wanted. I loved her. I was hell bent on making this relationship work. But to make it more stronger I had to meet her, but that was not a possibility since I had a college to attend to and was shortage of cash to travel all the way to Hyderabad. What I thought was impossible became possible. My college organised culturals for three days in March'08 and I decided it would be the perfect time to go and meet her. I planned to bunk two more days of college so that I can stay a little more longer with her. Everything was planned except the most important thing. Money. What will I do for five days in Hyd? That too I have to stay in a hotel, have to eat, have to take her out and I was severly short of cash.

I did something which I hated doing. I borrowed cash from five of my friends. Five hundred each. That made me richer by 2500 and I put in a 1500 more making it 4k. I told them that I will pay them in installments before we complete college. I did it because she was important to me. More than my principles. I booked my tickets taking a long route to avoid Chennai. Last thing I wanted was being seen by my family. I booked a bus to Bangalore. And then from there a train to Hyderabad. Trichy to Bangalore took me eight hours and then from there to Hyderabad took another 10 hours. So total 18 hours of travel. Only a Paulo Coelho's 'The Devil and Miss Prym' for company. I was damn tired. But the very thought of meeting her made my tiredness disappear. I was ready to do anything for her and I did.